But the things that come out of a person’s mouth come from the heart, and these defile them. For out of the heart come evil thoughts—murder, adultery, sexual immorality, theft, false testimony, slander. Matthew 15:18-19
Once upon a time, I was stubborn and my mind was closed. I ran the same toxic plays over and over and I felt horrible, not gaining any ground but losing yard after yard. When planning didn’t work, I tried brute force willpower, except that my mind was so clenched I still could not get the result I wanted. I would frequently excuse my actions, blaming them on the other person or situation. I would say “If you had not done that, then I wouldn’t be doing this.” or, “No, actually you are the problem.” Always pointing at the other and never at myself.
Then one day, I let everything go. I gave each day and each situation over to the will of Jesus Christ. I gave Christ control over my life. Afterward, I stopped being hard on myself, I stopped being hard on others, not perfectly but I keep working on it.
Jesus Christ forgives me so I can forgive, too, I know I can, but only through him and only from the inside out - not the outside in.
I realized that it’s the good that comes out of me that matters - that transforms and alters the world around me. Everything else is beyond my control. It’s the evil that comes out of me that adds weight to Christ’s shoulders, he who died with my future sins on his back and rose again with a plan to protect me from these demons.
Lord, I fail but at least now I know what matters. Your power is within and meant to be shared, I just have to keep practicing. Every single day I have to invite you within - and shine you without. I must concentrate on what comes from within me, get right back up when I fall, and turn any problems over to God to handle.
Daily Battle Order:
Get in touch with the fact that if you accept Christ, his Spirit might as well be sitting on the couch next to you all the time. You’re not fooling him. He saw it all before you were born and he still chose you. Live today like you believe it!